Job and Me

After reflecting on the past (almost) two
years of my life, I started to think more 
and more of Job. Poor Job. The guy lost 
everything except for his wife and a handful
of servants. After reading what happened to him
in just a single day, I started to parallel my life to his.
Sure, his was much, much more severe, but I 
couldn't help but see some similarities between 
his life and mine.

Job lost his oxen, donkeys and servants. 
I lost my step-dad and my husband's car.

Lost all his sheep and servants.
I lost my step-family and my husband lost
a job in UT. 

Job lost his camels and servants.
I lost my van and my in-laws.

Job lost all 10 of his children to a great wind.
I lost my mom, and the opportunity to move.

Job's body broke out into great sores that
covered his body. 
My knee and back flared up; I had to go 
to therapy. Anxiety attacks were next.

Three friends told Job that his troubles 
were his own doing for hiding something 
from God. 
Two people verbally slapped me in the face
when I tried to reach out for help and comfort.
Another wasn't there for me when I needed 
them most. 

Then, God spoke to Job, and Job prayed 
for his friends. God sent Job many blessings.
I will admit that it took me a long time before
I could pray for those who hurt and 
offended me. I am not as humble as Job. 
Quite frankly, I don't know how Job could
pray for his friends so quickly. 

*Job's sores went away.
*My knee and back feel better.

*He grew twice as rich.
*We haven't grown twice as rich.
But, surely I have learned twice as much.

*Job had 10 children again.
*My mom cannot be replaced.
*My in-laws still want nothing to do with me.
*My step-family have yet to even 
acknowledge me.

*Health, happiness, and honor were 
restored to Job.
*I can only hope that God would do the 
same for me. 

Job was a great man. He loved god deeply.
I wish that I had unwavering faith as Job did.
He is defiantly a great teacher and role model. 


Lord, 
Please help me create my new normal. 
Help me learn the most from my painful
experiences. And, please let them lead me
closer to You. Thank-you. 
In Jesus' name I pray, Amen. 

Hard Year

I really thought  that this year would be much 
easier then the last. 
And, it was, in a way. 
Sure, the grief was mostly gone. 
God put me back together.

But, it seemed that everything else just fell apart. 
I had to go to physical therapy for a bad knee.
I noticed that I had lost more of my hearing.
My vehicle was totaled. 
About a week later, my husband's vehicle stopped 
running altogether.
The following month, we were dealing with an 
insurance company from hell.
Then, our computer crashed. 
We got a break for about two months. 
Then, it started back up again. 
My husband got a job offer so we put our house 
up for sale. 
Then, someone was very interested in it. 
They took so long dragging their feet getting back 
with us on making an offer, that my husband had 
to forfeit the job. 
Then, we negotiated with the potential buyer 
for a MONTH (because "he's hard to get a hold 
of due to his job"); when it came down to the final price, 
our last offer, the guy walked. 

Then, September rolled around. 
And, things finally started to turn for the better. 

My knee is feeling better.
I went to talk about new hearing aids today; 
turns out someone might be able to help me 
get them covered.
We replaced my husband's vehicle right away.
But, I waited 7 long months to get one for myself. 
Our computer was repaired.
And, we got a sweet dog. 
We still haven't sold our house.
But, I'm alright with that. 

It's been a difficult two years, but I believe that 
it is finally turning around for the better. 
And, I know, without a doubt, that God is behind it 
every step of my way. 

Thank-you, Lord. 
I admit that I do not understand your 
plans for my life. 
But, my hope, trust, and faith lie in You. 
Amen